I have been in kind of a crap mood lately. I mean it comes and goes, but overall I've just been pretty cranky. My weigh-in (which I neglected to post...when I get cranky I also get less responsible and tend to forget that there are things I'm supposed to do) was bad this past Sunday...1.2 pounds up from last week. So I'm now back to 315.6...and actually, I stepped on the scale this morning and it was up to 316...WTF??? Okay, so there's nothing in my band and I have no restriction. But I've been logging everything I eat & drink in MyFitnessPal and haven't gone over my daily limits...and I've been walking AT LEAST a mile and a half at work, almost every day, and making that extra effort to move my body more in the things I do every day. It's just weird...yes, I've always had trouble losing weight, but it seems like I was able to maintain my weight for the most part for like 3 years without even making any special efforts (tracking, counting calories) like I am now. So WHY am I gaining when my habits have improved???? I should just start RAGE-EATING ice cream like this gal here...she knows!
The other thing that's been on my mind a ton lately is getting my craft room set up at home. BF and I have a 2-bedroom place so we're sharing the office (for now at least...our basement is half-finished so he might wind up moving down there). We moved in almost a year ago and I still haven't gotten a work desk or shelving or anything...and I am in some serious need of creative outlets...but have no room to work on them. I bought 7 canvases at Michael's the other day and I wanna paint, dammit!
Sorry this post is so rambly and weird...this is why I haven't been blogging the last few days. Hope everyone's having a better week than I am...and for those of you that have actual problems that are making your life hell, please forgive me my whining!!!!
-Mon
I feel some of your pain... It has happened to me so many times that I make good changes and the right choices and still gain weight. I think that's how I ended up where I am now, because I do start rage eating ice cream! I'm hoping a couple fills will help both of us. My surgeon did mention something about our brains thinking we ate a lot because of the band's restriction and that helps with the actual weight loss... let's hope!
ReplyDeleteI am so ready for some rage-eating ice cream. Especially since I have the opposite problem from you, and possibly too much restriction, and got stuck again today. So ice cream sounds nice and soothing.
ReplyDeleteSo, my theory, not that you asked, but that never stops me, sorry, is that people naturally go up and down a pound or so from week to week, just based on fluid retention, hormone fluctuations, the cycles of the moon, etc. But us obsessed banders, weigh ourselves so damn often, that we're just more aware of it than most people. Doesn't mean you're doing anything wrong. It sounds like you're doing everything you're supposed to do. Patience, girl. We took the slow route. But I am feeling that child and her ice cream.
You're probably right...BOOOOOO! I sure do wanna kick the slow route in the face sometimes :)
DeleteTotally understand how you feel. Keep your chin up and dont give up! And "here" is where we are! And we are here for you! The fills will help! And you will start seeing results soon. Make sure you are drinking lots of water! Make Ice Cream out of bananas! Don't rage eat the real stuff! You can do this!
ReplyDeleteChris, good advice--I'll definitely kick up a water intake a bit...I haven't been as good about that over the last almost-week. Thanks!
DeleteWhine away - this is your space! I hope you feel better soon. Stupid scale!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you came and blogged, missed you.
ReplyDeleteI have other stuff I want to say....but I don't know if it will sound dumb since I'm lucky enough to have the scale paying me off right now. I don't intend to post weigh in's, because I hate them so much. I've had enough Weight Watcher's weigh in's to last me three lifetimes. I'm just going to update my ticker whenever I move down, and when I stall or bounce up a pound, know that it will move down again. I totally understand how demoralizing it can feel to see it bounce up when you know you've done all the right things. I try to look at all the things I've done right and give myself credit for that, and count the NSV's. I really try to celebrate those more than the scale.
I'm so glad you are working at getting that creative outlet, and would LOVE to see your work on the canvases when you are done!!