Friday, March 29, 2013


Yay--these are so much fun  :)  Both to read and to fill out!

1. What’s your first reaction when you get really angry?

My heart starts pounding.  I get so full of adrenaline!  I think it's because I spent a LOT of years internalizing all of my anger so that it actually turned to depression and self-hatred.  And now I have no clue how to manage anger!  Lately I've been doing breathing exercises, which helps a lot!

2. When is the last time you cried in sadness or in joy?

Ummmm, all the friggin time.  Every single one of my emotions is hard-wired to my tear ducts.  I cry at commercials, cute photos of kids/animals, reality cooking shows, money, love, friendship (okay, that list actually got WAY more realistic toward the end!!), you name it.

3. If the stars aligned and everything was perfect from your partner to your job and income and everything – how many kids would you choose to have?

I'm still trying to decide if we can even manage one.  For the longest time, I thought I for sure didn't want kids.  But since I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome a few years ago, I was told I likely wouldn't be able to conceive anyway.  So I think part of my "no kids" decision was my self-preservation response to the fact that I thought it wasn't even an option.  Does that make sense?  Now that I know that weight loss, coupled with the hormone therapy I've been doing, can increase my chances, I'm thinking...maybe.  And if so, at least two.  My brother is my bestie and I can't imagine growing up without a sibling!!!

4. If you won the lottery – what is the first purchase you’d make?

I'd fund my BF's film project.  He's been working on it for like a decade and has finally polished off the script and found someone local to help him find funding and people to help with things like cinematography, special effects, editing, etc.  It's his dream and I would love to help him get it made!!!

5. Repeat question. Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.

Real life:  First week back at work.  Pretty uneventful.  Kinda makes me want to have another week off  :)  I've graduated to soft foods and my doc says I can move on to soft/solids today or tomorrow.  So my diet has really opened up, which is exciting!  And BF and I are going to Chicago for a concert on Monday (to see Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds), so I'm excited for that too.

Blog life:  I've been relying on you all a lot to tell me I'm not doing everything wrong!  I'm so afraid that I'm going to mistreat this expensive device and just flat-out FAIL.  I don't really think I will  :)

Happy Friday!!!



  1. Thanks for Bringing your own Crazy, helps me to get to know you a little better. I cry often too, or at least get choked up. Commercials, movies, music, memories of loved ones, Veteran's Day parades, you name it.

  2. Man...I knew you were cool. Nick Cave! I am so jealous. And Chicago is one of my favorite places ever. I hope y'all have a great time.

    I have my initial consultation with my surgeon this coming Wednesday. As well as my psych evaluation that my insurance requires. It finally feels like I am making progress in this loooonnng journey.

    Really enjoying your blog.